środa, 22 lipca 2026

Ravish



…she'd never seen such a look in his eyes. Never before. A mixture of uncertainty, pain, doubt, unjustified hatred, and love. For a moment, there was still strength and hope in them, but it quickly vanished. Just like the girl standing outside the door.

"I won't come back to you, Marta. We were together for a really long time, we've been through a lot, but it's over. You can always come to me, you can always call me, it doesn't matter the time of day or night. You know that. But we're not together anymore." He wiped the tears from her eyes with his fingertips. "It's not your fault, it's just the natural order of things. We've changed too much..." He was very sorry. But he preferred to end it before she met someone else. He preferred not to betray her, he preferred to be completely honest.

They'd met at a big party in one of the many clubs he frequented that night. Lots of alcohol, friends stirring things up... he thought that when he went out with her the next day, he wouldn't like her so much anymore. He was wrong – not only was she beautiful, but she was also intelligent, witty, and understood him perfectly. It even turned out they had mutual friends.
It wasn't long before they became a couple.
After one night together, he realized he didn't know her at all. He knew nothing about her, not about her past, nor the other dimensions of her world. It hadn't bothered him much until now, but suddenly he wanted to know every detail beyond the "here and now."
She talked a lot about her parents, about life in another city, about exes… they laughed together when they realized they might have met years ago…
"…but you probably had a girlfriend back then, right?" she sipped warm raspberry tea. She loved doing that, especially lying next to him in bed.
"Yes, Marta. I loved her very much.
" "So why did you break up…?" she asked uncertainly, not entirely sure she wanted to know.
"I just… I knew I'd meet you…" He kissed her cheek. They heard the doorbell.

Three months had passed. She couldn't wait any longer; she had to see him, reach out for reconciliation. Beg him to come back. She wasn't stupid—after all, many girls wanted him. It hurt so terribly that she couldn't hold a grudge against him for the others anymore. He'd said he could come anytime; it was neither too early in the morning nor too late in the afternoon. A light snow was falling. She wrapped herself more tightly in her coat and opened the stairwell door with her key. However, he would open the door to the apartment. Then she would smile, ask if he was bothering her, go inside, dazzle him, and he would realize he couldn't live without her either. Oh, and she'd add that she'd been passing nearby...
She rang the bell. She could hear music, so he was home. Why didn't he answer? She rang the bell a second time, holding it a little longer.
Finally, she heard the bolt and chain being unlatched. She smiled as best she could.
But it wasn't him who opened the door, but… some girl. He had a slight attraction to her, with cheerful eyes and a shapely figure. It was easy to see, as she was wearing only… a sheet.
They stared at each other for a moment when he emerged from the bedroom, dressed in similar attire.
She understood that this was the end. The final. The end. Of the world. What do you do during the end of the world?
She turned and quickly left the floor.

"It… was Marta…" he said quietly, looking at the terrified girl at the door. An awkward silence hung in the air.
"You don't want to… chase her…?" she asked, looking him straight in the eyes. Meanwhile, he approached her, closing the door with one hand, making it clear that he didn't.
"I'm sorry it had to happen… that this happened…" He took her face in his hands and kissed her gently on the lips.

She stood on the staircase for a moment longer, listening to his footsteps and words. The door slammed.

The look in Marta's eyes haunted her dreams at night, along with all the people she could ever have hurt. She knew it wasn't her fault that things hadn't worked out between them, she knew she wasn't responsible, but still…

What you give to the world comes back to you, sooner or later.

Just like the pain, love, hatred, doubt, hope, and strength in his eyes when he arrived with flowers to celebrate their anniversary and the boy in a towel answered the door.

3

Meanwhile, Parówa lowered the gun from my father's temple and aimed it at me.

"Any last wish before you die?" he asked, laughing sarcastically at his own joke.

Suddenly, in a single moment, my father kicked the gun Kiełbasiński was holding at chest level. I didn't even know he was so athletic. The gun fell right in front of me. In the blink of an eye, I grabbed it and aimed it at the murderer.

"Hands up," I said, pointing the gun at the would-be murderer while smiling at my father. I held the gun in one hand, took my cell phone out of my pocket with the other, and dialed my department's number.

A short time later, I returned home. I couldn't hide my happiness. My father was alive. I never missed him, but the thought of even his death brought me immense pain.
I unlocked the door and, after taking off my shoes, headed into the living room. On the desk, I saw a plate full of my favorite cookies, and next to it, a mug of raspberry tea. I was utterly surprised.

"Your favorites," I heard my fiancée say, standing next to the desk.
"Thank you, were you working at this time? In the middle of the night?" I expressed concern for Kasia. Looking at her, I imagined a sweet little girl preparing slippers and a newspaper for her father so he wouldn't be angry with her for the F she got in math. "
I'm back," she replied in one word, and I didn't want to hear any more. That was enough for me.
"Good, I'm so happy. And what about..."
"With Piotrek? I hope you'll forgive me. I'm so sorry.
" "How do you know that I know? Did you..."
"Yes, I talked to you, I mean, the other Paweł from the future. Tell me, what about her father? "
"He's alive, he's in the hospital.
" "Good, I was very worried.
" "Me too."

For a moment we looked at each other like little children offended because one took the other's lollipop.

"Shall we start all over again?" I didn't have to answer; I went over to her and hugged her.

Suddenly, Kasia curled up and clutched her stomach.

"What's wrong, Kasia? What's wrong with you?" I panicked.
"No, nothing, sorry..." She ran out of the room toward the bathroom.

Soon after, I put her to bed, and she fell asleep like a sweet baby.
I remembered the other Paweł; I should text him something. I went to the living room. Paweł was the only person available on Gadu Gadu. No wonder, it's five in the morning.

"Everything's fine. I saved him. He's alive," I wrote, proud of myself. I changed the future.
"That's wonderful. But nothing's happening," he replied immediately.
"How so?"
"Well, I'm still in my new house, alone...
" "What about those articles?
" "The same."
"Maybe we have to wait. Or it's not over yet."
"Are you suggesting Parówa hasn't given up on killing my, I mean, our, father yet?"
"I don't know. I'll go to the police station in the morning. I'll see how it all goes.

" I woke up quite late. Kasia had gone to the hospital earlier, to work. She just left me a note saying she was fine and would be back that evening.
A short time later, I showed up at the department. Admittedly, today was my last day of vacation, but I was consumed with curiosity about how the Parówa case had progressed.

"Did he escape? How on earth?" I couldn't believe the words of my colleague, Czarek, whom I found at the police station.
"I have no idea." The police brought him to the station and, after an initial interrogation, locked him up. When everyone arrived in the morning, they realized Parówa had fled. The search is ongoing. He couldn't have gotten far.
"Well, that's not bad, he wanted to kill my father, he almost killed me, and he just got away from you! That's the height of stupidity."
"Don't blame me, I wasn't here at the time." I'm surprised myself. You know what these new guys are like. Parówa probably treated them like brats and ran away.
"I see..."

I returned home that evening. For several hours I sat at the police station, waiting for my father's would-be murderer to be found. Unfortunately, nothing moved forward.
I turned on the computer. I'll text Paweł, maybe he can do something about it. Parówa is definitely planning something, that's why the future hasn't changed.
After opening Gad Gad, I immediately saw an unread message from him. Paweł had sent it several hours ago, not long after I left.

"Paweł, hurry up. The articles have changed. Now it's written in the newspaper that Parówa killed your fiancée. He attacked her in the on-duty room as she was getting dressed to leave the hospital. That's why the future hasn't changed. The rest of the story is the same. The murder took place just before 7 p.m.

I looked at my watch; it read seven-fifteen. I quickly ran to my car. I drove away with a screech of tires. On the way, I called the police department to let them know where the missing Kiełbasiński was.
I drove faster and faster. I called Kasia on her cell phone, but her phone was off.
My heart was pounding. Suddenly, I had the idea to call the hospital headquarters and ask them to check the on-duty room. No one answered. A moment later, I also realized that if anyone showed up there, they might be attacked by Parówa.
I stepped on the gas. Kasia was the only one who mattered to me at that moment. It had to work. It had worked with my father, and it had to work with Kasia now. It wouldn't be easy. Why did I read the message so late? I was sitting idly at the police station, waiting for Parówa to be found, when he was already planning an attack on my fiancée.
I was already close to the hospital, approaching.
My heart was pounding faster than ever.
The worst part is the waiting, if I'd already arrived at the hospital...


Meanwhile, the door to the on-duty room opened. Kasia, my fiancée, entered the room and headed for the table where her purse lay.
Suddenly, Kiełbasiński grabbed her and covered her mouth with his hand.

"Hush..." he said quietly, "Everything will be alright. You'll see your maker today."

Kasia tried to get away, but she couldn't. Finally, she bit the man's hand and jumped away. She positioned herself on the other side of the table. Parówa was aiming his pistol at her.
Suddenly, I stormed into the on-duty room. In an instant, I jumped at Kiełbasiński, and at the same time, he pulled the trigger. Right behind me, several armed police officers from my department ran into the room.
I stood up and approached Kasia, who had collapsed from the gunshot.
She was unconscious, shot. I wanted to call the ambulance, but I realized we were in the hospital, so I quickly shouted for the doctors to come.


A few hours later, Kasia's surgery was still ongoing. I sat there waiting for it to be over. It was my fault. If I hadn't been sitting at the police station so long and had arrived home sooner, I would have gotten the news sooner.
The surgery was finally over.
A doctor approached me.

"So, doctor? What's up with Kasia?" I asked, incredibly nervous. "
The surgery was a success. Katarzyna hasn't regained consciousness yet, but her condition is stable. Unfortunately, I also have some bad news."
"What happened?
" "Katarzyna lost the baby, I'm so sorry." He patted me on the shoulder and slowly walked away.
I sat down in a chair and held my head.
Of course, she got pregnant with Piotrek. It took me a moment to understand the doctor's words.
Suddenly, Piotrek and Marta entered the hospital. They ran to me.

"Paweł, what about Kasia?" asked my colleague's nervous wife. "
The surgery is over," I reassured my friends. "But she miscarried."
"Pregnant? Was she pregnant?" Marta didn't know what was going on.
"Will you leave us alone for a moment, we need to talk..." Piotrek grabbed his wife's hand and looked deep into her eyes.
"Okay, I'll go to the buffet and get you something to drink," she said, leaving.
"Let's sit down," I suggested to my friend.

We both sat down on chairs.

"Listen, Paweł, I want to confess something to you," he began. "
Piotrek, I know everything. About you, about the pregnancy...
" "Really? How do you know all this?"
"I found out... from Kasia. Just promise me you'll never do it again and that you won't hurt Marta either.
" "I promise." We both hugged in agreement.


I returned home late in the evening. A terribly difficult day was coming to an end. I felt incredibly tired, so I headed to the computer, wanting to write to my future friend that everything had worked out. Parówa had been arrested, Piotrek and Marta had reconciled, and I had reconciled with Kasia. We all promised each other that the days of arguments and misunderstandings would never return.
My friend repented. He told me he was having problems and had already signed up for meetings for hyperactive people.
Only a shadow of betrayal remained. I saw uncertainty on Marta's face. I couldn't be sure she believed everything would change now. She didn't know, couldn't know, if things would work out for them. But she had hope, or rather, trust in her husband.
And that's the best part. Kasia returned when I saved my father. That single moment changed everything. But if I hadn't saved my father and changed the future, perhaps things wouldn't have turned out the same.
I mean, I knew it wouldn't be the same hearing from my future self about how my life would unfold.
I kept wondering how we were even talking on Gadu-Gadu. It was a miracle.
I turned on Gadu-Gadu. I didn't get a single message. I started looking for Paweł. Unexpectedly, I couldn't find him on my friends list. I swiped my eyes across the screen a few times, but the message I was looking for didn't appear.
I checked the archive. Conversations with Paweł weren't saved, even though I hadn't deleted them.
I also couldn't find the files he'd sent me earlier.
Only one thought occurred to me: the future had changed.
Or rather, I had changed it.
I went to bed early today, and my mind was filled with a surprising peace. I could finally rest, and tomorrow I'd be back at work. But there's Kasia, whom I love and who will never leave me. And we're getting married next month.


A few weeks later, Kasia left the hospital. She's almost fully recovered. Parówa, on the other hand, was sentenced by the court to 10 years in prison. That's a good lesson for him.
I was sitting on the couch in the living room with Kasia, watching our favorite romantic comedy, "Fate and the Wild West." We were both laughing and in great spirits.
And our wedding was fast approaching.
I was devoting more and more time to Kasia, even though being an investigator is very time-consuming. But I loved her and didn't want to make the same mistake I had made before.
At work, I also noticed a change in Piotrek's demeanor; he became more calm and even-tempered.

"Paweł, I have an idea," my fiancée said.
"Yes, honey..."
"I think we should ask Piotrek and Marta to be our wedding witnesses," she suggested.
"Good idea," I kissed her.
"I love you," my fiancée whispered.
"I love you more," I replied, whispering in her ear.

2

Good evening.
" "Hey. I talked to my friend today. He said you were probably some kind of clairvoyant. He's neither a commander, nor could any woman have cheated on her fiancé with him. My Kwiatkowski and yours must be two different people," I explained to him what he'd suspected yesterday.
"Strange, but it's the only logical solution."
"Listen, I won't reply too often. I'm looking for some rock online," I warned, just in case. "
Do you listen to rock? I absolutely love it, especially the Evil Eaters."
"Seriously? They're my favorite band. I have all their albums," I said, clearly surprised.
"I have their entire collection too. Including their latest album." This new drummer is much better than the old one.
"New drummer? What are you talking about? They've had the same one for several years now." I didn't understand what he was talking about. "
What are you talking about? I know about that particular subject. "
"What new album are you talking about?" I asked, trying to clarify.
"'Pęcych Wiatr'." Great album." "
I don't know that one, you must have got the title wrong. The newest album is 'Czarny poemat'," I wrote. "
You've got to be kidding. That album came out about ten years ago." "
Listen, I'm tired of this nonsense. I've never heard such nonsense. Who are you anyway?" I was tired of the jokes. "
I'm Paweł Filipiak, and you are?"
"Okay, tell me, who asked you to play such a not-so-funny joke on me?" I asked, just to end this whole circus. "
Nobody asked me for anything. What's your name?"
"I'm Paweł Filipiak," I explained.
"That's impossible, you're joking with me."
"I'm not, I feel like I'm in some bad comedy." I couldn't understand a thing anymore. "
If your name is Paweł Filipiak, then tell me, dear Paweł, what color was your first bike?
" "A red Romet. A three-wheeler. They stole it when I left it in the park," I said.
"How did you know they stole my bike?"
"They stole it from me, I remember it, it was probably 1976," I tried to refresh my memory. "
In 1975, in the spring.
" "Yes, you're right, but how do you know all this?" I pondered.
"I'm saying I remember it because they stole my bike. I kept it in the stroller shed.
" "I also kept my bike in the stroller shed; I remember Adaś wanting us to go to the river together." I recalled the good old days.
"Yes, where we always threw pebbles and fed the ducks. It's a shame Adam went to the States last year."
"How on earth? I saw him with my wife last week. He didn't tell me he was going to the States—something else didn't add up.
"He always didn't say much. But wait, how do you know so much about me? Have you looked through my records or something?"
"I didn't look through anything; we must have had similar childhoods, maybe we grew up in the same backyard," I thought of the only logical solution. "
I don't remember any other Paweł Filipiak. Listen, I'm going to ask you something I've never told anyone. If you know that too, I don't know what to think anymore... What happened to Aunt Basia's missing piece of cake?" "
I ate it when everyone went to the garden—that seemed perfectly obvious to me.
"That's impossible, I never told anyone about that. Brother, this is the biggest secret since the Kowalski scandal in 2011." "
2011?" What, 2011 again? It's only 2006, after all—I felt like I was talking to a lunatic.
"Today is July 21, 2016. Saturday.
" "Today is Thursday," I wrote to him. The calendar was on his desk.
"What Thursday, Saturday, and above all, it's 2016."
"Sure, sure, you clever bastard, so who's the president in 2016?" I wanted to catch him in a lie. "
Tomasz Lis, last year, started his second term in the fall.
" "Lis is a journalist, so maybe Marcin Mroczek is the prime minister, and Kazimiera Szczuka is the first lady?" I shot him like a rifle. "
Mroczek, Szczuka—these are names from the past."
"Listen, I don't understand you. Tell the truth. Why are you trying to sneak up on me like this?" I wanted to finally explain. "
I've been telling the truth all along. I can send you today's newspaper as a file."
-So I'm waiting - I couldn't help but laugh.

A moment later, I received a text file on Gadu Gadu containing the front page of "Gazeta Wyborcza" from July 21, 2016. It was impossible. Someone must have done some good photomontage.

"Nice photomontage," I wrote in disbelief.
"It's not a photomontage. There's only one option left... It looks like we're talking to ourselves.
" "What?" My eyes nearly popped out of my head. An elephant has five legs and two trunks. Am I dreaming? I rubbed my eyes. "
We're talking to ourselves, I mean, I'm you, and you're me... how old are you?
"35, and you?" I still didn't understand. "
45. I'm talking to myself 10 years ago, and you're talking to yourself 10 years later. Incredible.
" "But how is that possible? It's like a good science fiction story..." I offered a good comparison. "
I have no idea." It seems something serious is happening with the network. I can't think of anything else.
"So everything you said is true?" I asked.
"Yes. I was telling the whole truth.
" "That means Piotrek will be the commander, and he'll also be sleeping with your fiancée... I mean, with mine... with Kasia... that's impossible. No, how on earth? She's faithful to me, we're happy together. We love each other and everything." That news didn't reach me. "
It took me a long time to get over it. I've never forgiven him.
" "That would be correct, I talked to his wife today. She came to me, asking for help. She suspected Piotrek was cheating on her," I wrote. "
Because it's true. Kasia didn't go to any friend, she was staying at a hotel, and that friend was... Piotrek.
" "I'll have to talk to her tomorrow. I wanted to visit my father, but I think I'll have to postpone it." That was the only thing that came to mind.
"My father is dead. They killed him.
" "My father is dead?" This news came as a shock to me. "I spoke to him on the phone today.
"He died. Tomorrow will be exactly 10 years. No, tomorrow. He'll die tomorrow. They'll attack him in his apartment at night. You have to prevent this, Paweł. It's the only chance...
" "But how? What should I do?" I demanded. "
Make sure my father doesn't die. Go get him as soon as possible, then come back and come here. We'll talk again on GG later. You'll tell me everything.
" "But what time did my father die?" I wanted to know everything. "
I don't remember, shortly after midnight."
"It's ten past twelve," I wrote, looking at my watch.
"I have an idea, wait a moment, I'll find the right article. It was in all the newspapers. I have it on my hard drive. I'll send it to you."

After a short while, I received another text file. "

Read it quickly so you know how to prevent my father's death."
"But what if I change the future? What if we don't talk on GG anymore?" a thought occurred to me. "
Too bad, you have to save him. We have no other choice. My father died because of me, I mean because of you, ugh... because of us. That criminal's brother wanted revenge, you can't let that happen." "
I'll call the police," I said.
"That won't do any good; you have no proof. Are you going to say you're talking to yourself, 10 years older?"
"Indeed, they won't believe me. I barely believe it myself. Okay, I'll get in touch, I have to read that article," I wrote, ending the conversation.

I opened the text file I'd received from myself.

A terrible murder - July 22, 2006

, Henryk Filipiak was murdered in his apartment between 1 and 2 a.m. The victim was most likely shot with a gun. An investigation is ongoing.

Known details of the murder - July 28, 2006,

Henryk Filipiak was killed in his home. The murderer remains unknown. There are no new leads. It is only known that Filipiak was shot. The murderer fired two shots, one hitting the victim's chest, the other hitting the armchair where Filipiak was sleeping at the time of the murder. Late that afternoon, his son found him and reported the murder to the police. The investigation is being conducted by the victim's son, Paweł Filipiak, and his partner, Piotr Kwiatkowski.

Murderer caught - June 11, 2007.

After nearly a year of investigation, the murderer who killed Henryk Filipiak was caught. The court sentenced him to 25 years in prison. The accused pleaded guilty. Previously, the investigating police had long suspected the convicted Marian "Parówa" Kiełbasiński, but there was insufficient evidence. Kiełbasiński also had a good alibi. Police determined that the murderer committed the crime as an act of revenge against Paweł Filipiak, the head of the investigation, who had secured the arrest of "Parówa's" brother, Ryszard Kiełbasiński, a few days before the murder. The killer broke in with a picklock, then approached the victim and killed him. Police also determined that the murderer could not have been at his brother's house, a fact he stated during questioning shortly after the crime.

Filipiak's Departure - July 10, 2007

"Catching the murderer won't bring my father back. I've decided to leave. I want to focus on animated films, which have always held a very important place in my life," said Paweł Filipiak shortly after the arrest of his father's murderer. A few days earlier, Chief Marek Beczka had resigned from the police station. He was replaced by Piotr Kwiatkowski.

After reading the last newspaper clipping from the future, without waiting for anything else, I turned off the computer, locked the apartment, and rushed to my car.
On the way, I pondered the articles I'd read. I glanced at my watch, which read half past twelve. I have to make it. I have some time. My father's house is about fifteen minutes away by car. I have to make it before the killer.
Soon, I found myself in front of my father's apartment building. I quickly got out of the car and reached the elevators. Both were on different floors; I ran up the stairs to the sixth floor.
My heart was pounding. I pondered today's conversation. How on earth could I be talking to my ten-year-older self? It was impossible. But everything was right. If I didn't save my father right now, my whole life would change.
If I prevented his death, I'd outrun the future, maybe when I returned I wouldn't be able to reconnect with my ten-year-older self? And I had so many questions. What would become of Kasia and me? What would become of my future?
I reached the door, took my keys from my pocket, but a moment later I noticed the door was open. No, I hadn't made it.
I quietly opened the door and headed into the room. I saw a guy reloading a pistol and standing opposite my father, who was dozing off in his armchair.
I fired a warning shot into the floor with my service pistol.
The would-be assassin turned and aimed his pistol at me. I also saw my father, who had suddenly woken up.
"Parówa" and I were both pointing our pistols at each other. His face was etched with nervousness, and the hatred he was filled with was palpable.
The man, with a swift movement, placed the pistol to my father's temple and grabbed him by the neck.

"Put the gun down or he'll die!" Kiełbasiński shouted.

I slowly put the gun down on the floor without lowering my head and raised my hands.

"Son, run!" my father shouted at me.
"What are you doing?" he said, "It's your son. Well, two birds with one stone," he said, an involuntary smile appearing on his face.

Meanwhile, at home, the computer was constantly on. My future self had Gadu-Gadu on all the time.
Suddenly, someone unlocked the door and walked in. Kasia, my fiancée, entered the apartment.
After a moment, realizing I was gone, she went to the computer to turn it off.
She saw that "strange guy," as I had it saved, was sending a message.
She wanted to avoid opening the message, but after a moment, she thought it might be something important.

"Get in touch as soon as you get back. I'm nervous," the message read.
"Paweł isn't here yet, I don't know where he is, I just got back," she slowly and laboriously pressed buttons on the keyboard.
"You just got back? Who are you?" "
I'm Kasia, and who are you? Paweł saved you as "strange guy," she explained.
"I'm Paweł too. It's hard to believe, but I'm writing from the future."
"You really are a strange guy," she wrote. "
Kasia, I haven't talked to you in ages. Ever since I found out you were cheating on me with Piotrek, I've never forgiven you. I've never found another woman.
" "What are you talking about?" She didn't know who she was talking to.
"About you and us in the future. Do you think I didn't suspect? He was the one who beat you, he was the one who told you to have an abortion.
" "I don't understand anything, I'm not pregnant. No one is beating me. Why are you writing this to me? Who are you?" Kasia touched the bruise under her eye. "
Paweł from 2016. I have no idea how we can even talk now. Paweł, I mean me, should be home now. You should come back and we should have a fight. I should find my father dead in his apartment the next day."
"I don't believe it, don't kid yourself," she wrote. "
Kasia, it's me, Paweł." How can I prove this to you? Remember our vacation? And how I bought the wrong sunscreen and got an allergy. I mixed up the names.
"It's you, Paweł," she finally believed.
"If it weren't for that boxer, if it weren't for him, we'd be a good old married couple. He beat you all the time. That's why you came back early. I remember. We had a fight then, and the next day I found my father dead.
" "Dead father? Paweł's father dead?" she said in disbelief. She was shocked.
"I don't know if he's dead. About an hour ago I was talking to me, Paweł. He went to save him because Kiełbasiński committed the murder between 1 and 2 a.m..
" "What if he doesn't save him?" she asked. "
Then your whole lives will change. You'll split up, Paweł's father will die, then he'll fall into depression, hit rock bottom..."
"Why are we breaking up? I know I made a mistake. But our relationship was practically nonexistent." For Paweł, I mean for you, all that mattered was work, your investigations. You don't even realize how much I loved you and how lonely I was. I suffered," she wrote. "
That's not true, work was always important to me, very important, but I always loved you. I neglected you, yes, but I never stopped loving you.
" "Me too, but I was fed up with this constant loneliness. Piotrek was so good, so sensitive, I believed everything would change. But he started beating me..." she broke off, not wanting to write about it anymore.
"Not just you, he also beat his wife, Marta. As soon as you broke up and she refused to return to him, and he took over as commander of our department, he beat her too. A few months later, they divorced.
" "It's terrible what I did, if only it could be changed..." my fiancée expressed a desire for hope.
"It can be changed..."

A lost teddy bear




. She walked beside Him. Beside Him. Isn't that a demeaning enough word for someone who loves? She thought. She was a young, unremarkable-looking girl. Dominika. A terrible name. Who in their right mind names a child Dominika? "Dominika, from the word dominicus—devoted to God." Oh my…devoted to service, or what? She thought with irony, which was immediately reflected in the smile on her face. She raised a hand to her face, tucked her unruly hair behind her ear, and looked at Him. Him. Handsome, because what else could you call a tall, brunette with gorgeous, sapphire eyes, a radiant smile, and broad shoulders she loved to snuggle into. He wore red Hugo Boss especially for her, because he knew she loved that scent. Him. That same ironic smile appeared on her lips again. It appeared as unexpectedly as his hand on her shoulder.
"What are you thinking about?" he asked, and she blinked in disbelief. It was the first time anyone had asked her that question, a question she considered a sign of intense interest in someone. And it was Mr. Beautiful who asked the question that held so much weight for her—another mocking thought in two minutes. She tipped her head back and burst into a forced laugh that embarrassed him, and his eyes automatically seemed to ask: what's going on?
"I'm thinking about you. Why are you, handsome, successful, with a wonderful sense of humor, intelligent, walking NEXT to me now? It's good that it's NEXT to me; I'm certainly aware that you didn't choose me "all." "
That's why... You're different from all those empty girls, adjusting their three layers of makeup at the sight of me. Because I have you NEXT to me, because NEXT to you terrifies me—and I like that fear—and forces me to make the effort that will allow me to, as you put it, "choose all of you." "—he replied, resting his chin on her head, inhaling the citrus scent of her hair. She pulled away from him and asked, in a tone he loved so much, because he knew she believed him, but simply wanted confirmation that touched her tough, strong-minded—in his opinion, this inner strength was slightly feigned—personality:
"Really?"
"Yes, honey. You know what? They opened a new coffee shop two streets over, and I understand we'll go there now, because you still love coffee, don't you?" His sweet smile always made her want to kiss him, hug him, and squeeze him so tightly that everyone would know he was hers.
They walked hand in hand, laughing at the anecdotes he told, and she, changing the tone of her voice, repeated them again. Passersby looked at them with the tenderness one would give to a small, innocent, and delightful child, unaware of the cruelties of this world. Yes—when they were together, the world seemed beautiful, as happy as they were.
"The tunnel…" she said quietly as they reached the dark entrance to the underground city tunnel.
"Did you say something, Dominika?" he asked.
"No, nothing..." she replied just as quietly, and grabbed his hand tightly.
"Ouch, that hurts. I know, I know, I'm so loved that you don't want to let go of me, but please, not so hard.
" "I'm sorry..."
The minute they spent in that tunnel felt like an hour. She didn't like tunnels. She was afraid of them. A ray of light from the streetlamp illuminated her face, and then he noticed that she was terribly pale.
"Is something wrong? Are you feeling unwell?" he asked, concerned.
"It's because of that tunnel..." she replied.
"You never said you were claustrophobic.
" "Because I don't. Let's sit on that bench, okay?
" "Of course. Will you come?" The concern in his voice brought a tender smile to her face. When they sat down on one of those uncomfortable, rusty metal city pseudo-benches, Dominika began to speak quietly.
"I don't like tunnels." I was always afraid of them. I'm a child..." Tears welled up in her eyes. "
Teddy bear, you're not a child anymore. I don't think of you that way. To me, you're very mature for your age. You're not silly like your peers, you know that.
" "I know. Let me finish. Please don't interrupt me. I'm a child. A child who has to go through a long, dark tunnel, holding their beloved teddy bear, which has been with them since birth. It was precious to them. When the child reaches the end of the tunnel, they see light... It's beautiful, even miraculous, compared to the darkness within the tunnel. A darkness that was becoming boring and seemed to tire and confine the child. Light. Once the child is outside the tunnel, they realize they don't have their beloved teddy bear. Their first reaction is to cry, desperately searching for the toy around them. It's nowhere to be found. Parents comfort the child, telling them they're big now and don't need a teddy bear. They promise to buy the child, for example, a dog, thinking that the dog will show the child a different joy, teach them something new. Blinded by naivety, the child humbly agrees. Over time, they forget about the teddy bear. Only when the child is no longer a child, when they have grown up, does they begin to notice the absence of the teddy bear – a symbol of bliss, peace, and childhood happiness. But the teddy bear is gone… You see, Łukasz (she didn't like to use his name often; it was practically sacred to her), every time I enter a new stage of my life – a dark tunnel – I lose something irretrievably – my beloved teddy bears. I lost my faith, but I've become accustomed to its absence; I cope on my own. I think it even taught me independence, because in difficult moments, I don't fall to my knees and beg God for help, for guidance, like others do… I cope on my own. But now I still have love, which is you, and hope…” Tears flowed down her cheeks.
Her words moved him so deeply; he felt he was the most important person in her life. Second, she never told Him about losing her faith. They didn't talk about religion.
"Honey, I won't leave you. I'm a teddy bear strapped to you, do you understand? I love you—my love is a harness. I love! I love! I love you!"
They hugged each other and promised to be together forever.
That teenage vow bound them together forever.
After a few years, they got married (a civil wedding, because of her beliefs, which he respected), busied themselves with work, saved up money to buy a house, a car, and traveled abroad. They still managed to enjoy each other, just like when they were teenagers, walking down the street toward the tunnel…
Like in every marriage, they too had their arguments and disagreements, but they always found a compromise.
This idyll didn't last long, however. On their sixth wedding anniversary, over a gala dinner, as was customary on such a day, Łukasz said,
"I have to tell you something very important.
" "Me too, honey," she replied joyfully.
"Tell me."
"No, you first.
" "Okay. I've been carrying this news with me for months. I don't know if this is the right time, but I have to tell you because I can't pretend anymore. I'm suffocating in this relationship. I don't feel fully fulfilled. We're young, and I feel so tired, like I'm seventy. Your love is making me fade. It's so… overwhelming. And I… I don't love you anymore. I'm leaving. Goodbye." He grabbed his briefcase and left the restaurant. He left her alone, shocked, with expensive mascara smeared on her cheeks…
"I'm pregnant…" she repeated quietly, swallowing her tears.
For a long time, she didn't leave the house. She had everything: a house, a car, expensive clothes and cosmetics, her own company, ambitions, plans, people who respected her and valued her opinion… her love for Him and His child inside her. "Baby!" she screamed, and hope resurfaced in her mind that all was not lost.
She dressed elegantly yet solemnly to arouse his desire, applied makeup and combed her hair; she ran out of the house, leaving the door open—she didn't care about her material possessions now. He mattered. Only He. She went to his studio apartment, which he had bought while they were still living together so she could work in peace.
She knocked on the door, and when he opened it, smiling radiantly, she entered his apartment without asking for his permission.
"Dominiko, listen, I don't want to hurt you again with my words. Remember the story that old man told us in Spain? Love is like sand in your hands. The more you clench your fist, the faster the sand spills out, but in an open palm it remains intact. You squeezed your hand too tightly. The sand flew out. I'm sorry, but this is truly the end, finally understand that. This isn't the kind of love I wanted. And neither did you. It didn't work out for us..." He said calmly and sat down in the armchair, and with a feeling of immense humiliation, she ran from his apartment. She ran like an animal blinded by light, oblivious to the obstacles...
She opened her eyes and saw the face of a middle-aged man above her, dressed in a white coat and with a stethoscope around his neck. "
You're in the hospital. You were hit by a car. I'm sorry, but you lost your child in the accident." Apart from the bruises, you're fine. You'll be out in about a week. His voice was as indifferent as if he were talking about an egg that had fallen from someone's hands and broken. It was nothing.
The doctor was right – she was released after a week. With a bag containing her personal belongings, she left the hospital. She decided to walk home. She thought about everything that had happened. About her entire life. She felt that childish naivety again…
I lost faith – my first lost teddy bear… Love left me – but the harness came undone and another teddy bear fell out, and now I've lost the child who was my only hope – my last teddy bear…
I don't even have friends who could give me "vicarious" joy again… Because can I call people who are only there for me when things are good friends?
In the rush of thoughts, she didn't even notice she was walking through a dark, dirty tunnel. She was roused from her reverie by the clatter of cosmetic scissors, which had fallen from her bag, hitting the concrete floor. She leaned down to pick them up and in that instant decided her life had no meaning. She took the scissors and slowly, with great precision, began to slit her veins.




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She saw a light creeping into the darkness surrounding her. A great light that made her feel safe, innocent, and blissful. She thought this must be Heaven. Maybe God was giving her a chance?
She squeezed her hand tightly and felt something soft inside. She looked down. In her hand was the teddy bear again…

Zacchaeus



Prologue

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He flew above the red clouds. His long body rippled, from his flared nostrils to the tip of his tail. Gusts of wind bounced off his broad wings, which rose and fell repeatedly with the force of steely, tense muscles. He was running. He had been traveling for a long time, but he hadn't stopped for a moment. A misty red desert stretched before his narrowed pupils. But he knew exactly where he was flying. He knew his hometown. As well as a baby knows the scent of its nursing mother. He knew where he had to go, and he was determined to do it. He would return, and nothing would stop him. He might not be the same as before, but somehow he remembered everything—even the things he'd rather forget. He remembered the hills where he'd grown up. He remembered the flocks of sheep his father had led to slopes covered with fresh green grass. He remembered his mother, who always waited for them at home when he and his father returned from their long days of conversation and work, which brought them so much joy and satisfaction. These were some of the memories that made him long to return. But he had other memories, less clear and less peaceful. They weren't connected to his childhood, and he feared that, to a large extent, they were the ones he was trying to escape from now. Sooner or later, they would come looking for him, but when they found him, he would be ready. He would face them and test their power. He felt his strength growing with each passing day. Strength and something else. Something he found difficult to put into words at the moment. A naked, nameless feeling that gradually enveloped his thoughts like winter envelops the passing autumn mornings. Slowly, but surely. For now, it was still very faint, but somewhere deep inside, he sensed that this alien feeling was far greater than himself and his purpose.




Chapter 1

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The cards wandered across the table, seeking their place, as unfettered as doves in a park. They fell one upon the other like autumn leaves. Lightly, without wind, without enthusiasm, without passion. The unwavering gaze of darting, joyful eyes was enough for them. Each pair of amused pupils cast crumbs, fleeting glances, now at the card table, now at the dealer, who was constantly recounting the story of his last month. The card pattern, depicting red and black roses, gave nothing away, yet each player tried to penetrate the unified and mysterious. The players at the table wanted only one thing at that moment. They all wanted to win, or at least most of them, because at that moment, the two pairs of eyes were not following the cards, the dealer, or anything else but each other. Twelve people sat at a round, old wooden table, laughing repeatedly at the boy's story, who was nonchalantly throwing cards onto the stained green tablecloth. But two of them had been sitting motionless for five seconds. The girl held a carved wooden pipe in both hands, shaped like a black dragon proudly spreading its wide wings. From the top of its head rose a wisp of pale smoke, which floated before her eyes like a delicate gray mist. The boy sitting opposite those eyes seemed absent at that moment, but on the other hand, his eyes glowed with a strange, mysterious light that easily pierced the grayish smoke. Two pairs of eyes, like two poles of the same magnesium, fused by an invisible force. Their faces, at that moment, showed neither concern nor smiles. In fact, their faces betrayed no emotion at all. It was as if their expressions had suddenly frozen. She paused for a few seconds. Seconds that unraveled like braids of hair and dissolved before their eyes. It lasted only a moment; no one noticed, no one paid much attention, but when the girl looked away, she felt as if she had returned from a very long and distant journey. A journey as unexpected as a flash of lightning in the sky. So brief, yet so bright! Such a moment awakened a sense of space and thunder in her heart, stirring fear and uncertainty. It was impossible for that to happen. So she felt only an illusion. She had touched only the illusion of hope, nothing more. Hope disappoints, always disappoints, therefore it is only hope and nothing more... Indream could not shake the feeling of dread that haunted her now. Another boy, sitting to her left, gently nudged her shoulder and nodded expressively towards the pipe. She handed it to him, almost without a sense of loss, and once again faced him. Gooday, the boy sitting there, was no longer looking her way; he was now busy examining the cards that fate had dealt him. She waited a moment for his reaction, then picked up her own. Three cards, one after another, revealed their names to her,This time, they smiled at her wickedly, like a dealer who was currently looking into his deck as if it were a folding mirror. He had always been captivated by himself, perhaps even platonically in love. She'd thought of him that way since she'd met him about two years ago. His stories, always spilling from his sleeves, were focused on him like a lens on a wriggling insect. He seemed amusing to himself, yet others listened only because he was rich and always had pockets full of rustling tickets to a better time. Yes, "a better time," just completing another circle, stopped in his hands, as the dragon lacked the motivation to continue its journey. Ulysses set aside his deck of three cards and began filling his pipe, which now seemed like a distant beast preparing to continue its sinister journey.



***



Dathan was starting this game, so he picked up the extra card first and slid it into his deck. His facial expression gave nothing away; he clearly wasn't particularly concerned with the game. At that moment, instead of thinking about the card, he was probably thinking about the pipe that was creeping closer to him with every passing moment. And indeed, Dathan wasn't a huge fan of cards. The whole idea of ​​a round table and this game seemed a bit silly and pointless to him. Couldn't they be doing a thousand much more interesting things right now? Like going outside, climbing to the very top of a snowy slope, and plunging down at breakneck speed. He loved playing in the snow; after all, that's what he came here for. Skating, in such a place and in such weather conditions, was a necessity. It was a shame the others didn't feel the same way at that moment. Ulysses, who was the main organizer of this meeting, wasn't opposed to downhill skiing, but this time he insisted on this stupid card game as if his eternity depended on it. Dathan glanced across the table and smiled faintly. His wife, Victoria, didn't share his enthusiasm for the slopes, as she hated winter and the cold. Instead, she loved listening to the silly stories the host recited with the grace of a drunken elephant. Ulysses was recounting how last month he'd gotten the wrong hotel room and instead entered the nuns' room, who, upon seeing him, had burst into loud laughter. Dathan briefly tried to imagine the scene, but for the life of him, he couldn't imagine why the nuns were laughing. Perhaps they were so spiritual that they could see into human souls and were amused by Ulysses's clumsy inner self. Or perhaps they were laughing because Ulysses had paid them to, just so he could tell them. It didn't matter, he didn't care. Right now, he was more interested in the Djinn, or rather, in what he held to his lips. The wooden dragon was squinting at him with its engraved eyes. Small holes were made in the wooden eyes, which were just beginning to shimmer with the reddish glow of the embers. Genie inhaled sharply. Dathan began to worry about the pipe's contents, so he placed his hand on his friend's shoulder and shook him gently. Genie lifted the pipe from his mouth and looked reproachfully at Dathan. They stared at each other for a moment, a fact that didn't go unnoticed by the others, as their laughter momentarily subsided. Genie had always been very nervous, and given his size, it was an undesirable trait. This time, however, he remained completely calm and, with a strange smile, handed the pipe to Dathan


.

Vini stopped listening to Ulysses's story and began looking around for his pipe. It was currently with Dathan, who was inhaling its pungent smoke. From this distance, the dragon's glowing eyes looked truly dark. As he inhaled, Dathan closed his eyes, and the dragon opened them. Vini thought it was a strange association, but it reminded him of birth and death. Something is born, and something dies. It was probably not the best comparison, because Dathan didn't look even the slightest bit dead now. The contents of the pipe were clearly giving him considerable satisfaction, so he took a second, even harder drag. His mind rocked like a ship on a stormy sea, and he almost fell overboard. He opened his eyes and looked around. For a moment, he thought what he saw was just a hallucination, but a second gust of wind made him cry out and grab for support. He was sitting in a glowing armchair above the red clouds that stretched all around him like an endless desert. He tried to close his eyes, and when he opened them, he was back in the room at the table. No one was paying him any attention. No one noticed anything, and no one heard his loud cry. It must have been an incredibly realistic premonition. Where on earth had Ulysses gotten such a staff? Dathan glanced around again, but everyone was absorbed in the game. Only Indream was looking at him, or rather, at the pipe he held in his left hand



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Dathan, his hand trembling slightly, handed the pipe to Indream. Now it seemed larger and heavier than before. The winged pipe was intricately carved from sycamore wood. At least that's what Ulysses claimed. Indream knew nothing about tree species; she couldn't even tell the difference between pine and oak. Ulysses told me he bought it from a man while traveling through South America. One day, while in Peru, he stumbled upon a dilapidated shop and found it there. It lay among old clocks piled high in a corner filled with cobwebs and a musty smell. He never said how much he paid for it, but everyone knew he was very attached to it. He was extremely reluctant to smoke from it. If it weren't for Oria's pleas, he certainly wouldn't have agreed. Incidentally, I wonder if there was anything in this world he would have denied her. Oria was very beautiful. Very beautiful and very sophisticated. She was now sitting to Ulises's right, her left hand on his thigh. Everyone knew it was against the rules of the game, but somehow no one felt like reacting, at least not publicly. Indream began to examine the pipe, and her thoughts returned to its contents. She lifted it and looked into the masterfully carved, narrow eyes of the angry dragon. She turned it over and inhaled deeply, the sharp smoke piercing her throat with hundreds of tiny stings. She held the flame for a moment, as it seemed to burn in her neck, and then slowly exhaled the grayish smoke through her mouth. Her thoughts, momentarily dazed, became so intertwined that they began to interpenetrate. She closed her eyes and let herself be carried for a moment by invisible wings that carried her high above this room and these people. She now saw twelve blurred clocks, arranged in a circle, forming one large, misty clock. It seemed to her that she, too, was one of those twelve clocks, which slowly began to take on the vague shape of a human being. For a moment, she still felt as if she were a clock at the six-o'clock position, when she suddenly realized it was only an illusion, and the illusion burst like a soap bubble punctured by the sharp needle of reality

He



Sue hated this kind of weather. Water was pouring from the sky in torrents. When she was leaving for work, she hadn't expected her car to break down on the way home, and she hadn't brought an umbrella or a raincoat. Besides, she hadn't expected such a heavy downpour. She was wearing a thin jacket, which, as she walked down the street, no longer resembled the expensive, designer one it had originally been. It looked like a plain, soggy rag with buttons. In any other situation, Sue would have been concerned, but now all she could think about was getting home quickly, changing, and taking a taxi to the office. She had a meeting she had to make it to. As luck would have it, her cell phone had died, so she couldn't call roadside assistance for her red car. "It must have broken down today," she thought bitterly, "and they say their cars are reliable. Bastards."
A few days ago, she had managed to settle a difficult court case. And as the rain poured down her hair in waves, she still managed to smile. She knew few lawyers could fool Judge Ramsey. She had succeeded, and she had joined that ranks of the few.
There was no doubt in her mind that her client was guilty. This man was a sleazy old man who, whenever they met to discuss their defense, would casually stare at her cleavage. She was fed up with the man, but he promised her a hefty bonus for a quick win, so she somehow managed to endure his nauseating presence. He was accused of financial embezzlement, fraud, tax evasion, defrauding his former company, and the like. The indictment ran to a considerable number of pages. Sue had known from the outset that the trial would be hellishly difficult. But she wasn't deterred and put everything on the line. Either she won now, or the trial would drag on for months. She liked a quick resolution and wanted to do everything she could to make it the same this time. Her client, despite his age and lifestyle, enjoyed excellent health. However, she had to ensure that Judge Ramsey deemed him so gravely ill that he wouldn't last a day behind bars. It was worth having doctors on hand, doctors she had once helped and now expected to be repaid. And so, during the trial, Sue spoke with a sad and resentful voice about her client, who was nearing death, sitting beside her with a grave expression, laughing heartily.
She was truly good, carefully observing the judge's facial expression and knowing she couldn't overdo her legal presentation. She had managed to perfectly read the limits of her abilities, and as she concluded her speech, she felt she had succeeded. Judge Ramsey stared at her intently after she finished speaking. Sue never looked down, holding his piercing gaze, searching for any ambiguity. Her client coughed discreetly from time to time, just as she had instructed. It was as effective as peering into her cleavage. Judge Ramsey took another look at the medical reports she had provided, which described her client as having at most a year to live. As always, Ramsey was searching for the slightest flaw, some tiny sign that he was being duped. But he found nothing.
The reports were impeccably crafted, and even a judge like him couldn't find anything in them that would undermine Sue's masterful performance. When he returned after a short break to deliver the verdict, she was calm. She felt she had the upper hand again. Her client had been cleared of all charges. The verdict was final. The prosecutor was close to lunging at Ramsey and strangling him with his bare hands. Instead, he merely told Sue, as he left the courtroom, that it was outrageous and that he had seen through her deceitful and dirty game.
But both she and he knew he couldn't prove it. Her client kept his word and handed her a check, the amount of which was supplemented by the previously promised bonus. It was a truly substantial sum, enough to quell her guilty conscience. Although Sue couldn't recall ever having felt it.
The rain was getting heavier, but Sue, lost in her thoughts, didn't notice. Instinctively, she quickened her pace and, without seeking any shelter, proudly strode to her fashionably furnished apartment (thanks to this last trial, she had finally bought herself that dream couch and two armchairs). "If I've managed to outwit Ramsey, then I'm out of the question," she said with a broad smile. Oceans of raindrops were already pouring from the sky, and she herself was already one giant raindrop, but despite this, already thinking about her next case, she proudly strode toward her street.
As she was composing another colorful defense speech in her head, she saw a strange figure in a coat and hat about thirty meters away.
She might not have noticed her if it weren't for the fact that she was standing still, in the middle of the sidewalk, instead of heading out of the downpour like she was. She seemed to be looking at Sue, though she couldn't see her face, as the high collar of her coat and the hat pulled low on her forehead made her invisible. Sue slowed slightly and decided to turn around and take a different route. She knew she'd have to make a detour, but she felt she shouldn't pass this strange man. She wasn't a timid person, and the self-defense course she'd recently taken made her feel safe, but she still preferred not to pass this rain-soaked figure. She was about to turn back when she suddenly saw the man—she was now almost certain it was a man—starting to walk toward her. Now she had no doubt he was staring at her. She felt she couldn't avoid confrontation with this man, who, it seemed to her, must be some kind of lunatic, pervert, thief, or something borderline. As she was getting into a defensive position, something her self-defense teacher would have been proud of, she finally managed to see the man's face, and in the next second, she turned on her heel and began running as fast as she could.
The sight of this man's face suddenly made her lose the will to test the skills she'd learned in self-defense. She didn't know how much the pouring rain could have caused it, but what she saw made her want to run. She didn't even scream; she simply knew she had to run and avoid a confrontation with this man. His face was horribly deformed, as far as she could see in that brief moment. It was hard to even tell how much of a man it was. However, his posture and clothing convinced her that he must be a man.
When she turned around, she realized with relief that the man was no longer behind her. "He gave up, thank God... I think I surprised him a bit with my quick reaction and he wasn't prepared for it. It's a good thing he didn't feel like running after me," Sue thought.
What happened next, however, shocked her like nothing she'd ever experienced before. It was a combination of shock and terror, which was already making itself felt at that moment. Sue simply couldn't take a step. Not from fear, but simply from her legs refusing to obey the commands coming from her brain. Her feet felt as if they had been cemented into the pavement. It felt as if her lower limbs had been replaced by bags of cement. "What the hell is this!" she said to herself, and tried to bend down. She couldn't. It looked as if her shoe soles were made of metal and she'd stepped onto a section of pavement beneath which was a fiendishly powerful magnet. That's how it looked, but the thought didn't amuse Sue at all. Something was holding her in place, preventing her from taking a step. She was already soaked to the skin; she felt the water seep into her underwear. She tried to jump and nothing, tried to lean over and couldn't, because whatever was blocking her movements kept her upright. "I think I'm going crazy, I feel like the heroine of some fucking half-baked cartoon," she thought. She gathered the last of her strength, pushed as hard as she could against her immobilized legs, and...nothing. She still couldn't move an inch. Slowly, tiny threads of panic crept into her mind, but like a lawyer of Sue's caliber, she managed to control herself. She took a few deep breaths and blinked vigorously. Raindrops were already streaming down her cheeks. She thought she could handle it, that she was truly strong and wouldn't panic. This situation was so absurd it couldn't be real. "One more minute and I'll start screaming, damn the myth of the strong, modern woman." If I don't get this out, my head will burst," Sue continued her internal monologue. Her legs felt as if they were stuck, like two sticks driven a good few inches into the ground. The difference, however, was that her feet weren't UNDERNEATH, but rather ON the sidewalk. "Hehe, I'm really starting to go crazy with such absurd and twisted thoughts. Fuck it, I have to..." she formulated another thought and, taking a deep breath, gathered herself to scream. It could hardly be called a scream, though, because she only opened her mouth wide, and not a single sound escaped. "No, no, no...this is some nightmare, what does this mean, what is this...NOOOOO!" Sue screamed. It only seemed that way to her, because this scream, like her previous statements to herself, took place inside her. Not only could she not move, but she also couldn't utter a single sound. Apparently, whatever was holding her there was also beginning to affect her vocal cords. She knew she was close to madness, but she tried not to succumb to it just yet. Suddenly, a powerful bolt of lightning lit up the sky, and Sue jumped in fright. Or rather, she flinched; normally, she might have jumped.but now it was obviously impossible.
She realized that other drops besides rain were beginning to form on her cheeks. Tears of helplessness. Sue began to cry, and she couldn't remember the last time this had happened. She tried to wipe the tears, along with the raindrops, with her jacket sleeve, but it was like a soaked rag, just like the rest of her clothes, so it was no use.
She began to shake all over. She couldn't stop it. It was caused by both the terror welling up inside her and the fact that her body was only now reacting to the cold of the water pouring from the sky. She knew she was about to faint in this absurdly upright position. "This is going to be something, fainting and still standing straight," Sue thought, but it didn't seem funny. She took several deep breaths again, only this time with her head raised, and she choked as rain entered her open, gasping mouth. As she tried to control her coughing from the rainwater, she heard an inhuman laugh behind her. It couldn't possibly be human laughter, she thought. She'd never heard such a horrific sound. She automatically turned her head as far as possible in her position and immediately regretted it.
Behind her, a few meters away, stood HE, the figure in the dark coat and hat she'd been trying to escape from. It seemed to Sue like it was ages ago, not just minutes ago. Her tormentor stood behind her, roaring with that inhuman laughter. He did this with his head raised, and Sue could see that his entire neck was covered in hideous scars. There wasn't a single smooth spot. His entire neck was covered in scars. It was a macabre complement to his deformed face.
Suddenly, his laughter stopped, and he looked at Sue. Only now did she notice that the whites of his eyes were covered in a network of broken blood vessels, giving them a chilling red hue. She had to turn her head back because the unnaturally forceful twisting was making her neck ache. She had no idea what to do. Fear paralyzed her completely. Then she heard the voice of the man in the trench coat. The sound made her realize beyond a shadow of a doubt that what she was dealing with couldn't possibly be a human being.
"So you think you're a great lawyer who can fool everyone. Am I right?" You think you can wrap any judge around your little finger, giving you the ability to defend even the most guilty client. You're so confident in your own abilities that you probably think of yourself as an "invincible lawyer." You see, I used to think I could acquit even the worst mafioso. I was a well-paid lawyer for bigwigs in mafia circles. I was really good at it. I proved their insanity, supposed terminal illnesses that gave them a few months to live... and so on and so forth.
I was good at it. At that moment, Sue felt his cold breath on her neck, chilling her to the bone. "For years, in various parts of the country, I played a game with judges in which they were doomed from the start. I had such a high opinion of myself. I was swimming in the dirty money the mafia paid me, and I was happy with it. I couldn't complain about a lack of clients." She saw his silhouette emerge from behind her and, walking slowly, stop about two meters in front of her. Then he turned, looking at her, and continued his interrupted speech. His deformed face seemed to be contorted into a mocking smile. Sue stared at him as if hypnotized. She simply couldn't turn her head, even though she desperately wanted to. The sight before her was horrific, like a scene from the most terrifying horror movie, the kind that makes you want to hide under the bed and not come out until the end. And even long after. Deformed Face continued his argument, and the terror on Sue's face seemed to encourage him.
"And you see, it would probably still be that way. I would defend those shady characters and collect a fortune from them, inflating my self-satisfaction. But someone up there..." As he spoke, he took his right hand out of his pocket, both of which had been hidden in his coat pockets, and pointed at the black, storm-clouded sky, where another bolt of lightning had cracked. "...decided that enough was enough." Before he put his hand back in his pocket, Sue noticed the unnaturally contorted fingers covered in dark scars. As did the rest of his hand. "So, apparently, my ego had swollen to such a terrifying size that it threatened to explode soon, and it had to be prevented. That's how I explain it to myself, but if someone had said something like that to me back then, I would have laughed at them and recommended I see a psychiatrist." In any case, you could say I bid farewell to this earthly world in truly fireworks fashion. Sue thought she'd misheard, but the certainty with which he said it chilled her even more, and if she could have, she would have screamed at the top of her lungs.
"The other day I was driving my beautiful, brand new, obscenely expensive car to meet another 'innocent'..." he winked at Sue, intensifying her disgust and horror, "...client. I had well over a hundred on the clock. I must add that this wasn't a highway at all, but an ordinary built-up area. It was quite late, so I didn't hesitate to use the gas pedal boldly. I was driving along, enjoying the speed, when suddenly, out of nowhere, a huge truck came around the corner. I knew I wouldn't be able to brake. I swerved sharply to the right, drove onto the lawn, and hit a lamppost with full force. And since I wasn't wearing a seatbelt, of course, you understand. I'll spare you further details. I couldn't have survived it, anyway. Where I found myself next is hard to put into words. To put it mildly, what is instilled in people during their lifetime bears no resemblance to the images they have once they get there. Believe me, you don't want to know the evil you might witness there. At a certain point, the screams of those being burned alive become as natural to you as a rooster crowing in the morning here on Earth. Sue felt that in a moment she wouldn't be able to stop the madness seeping into her mind. Another moment and... HE continued. "My actions in life were properly classified there, and accordingly, day after day—in the earthly sense, because time is relative there—I was 'taken care of' in a specific way. Suffering became my constant companion. I received it in various dimensions and in the most sophisticated doses. I wasn't a murderer in life, and the evil I committed was of a completely different nature, although those who were pardoned thanks to me had murders on their consciences and likely inflicted pain on others later on. However, I hadn't inflicted mortal pain on anyone, and that gave me, in a place of horror, what I'll call it, an "opportunity." That's what they call it there. Every non-murderer is given one opportunity there, which consists of returning to the world of the living for one day to deliver the greatest possible dose of fear to one person of their choosing. It's a form of game allowed in a place from which, for me, there's no return.
Sue began to lose track of this cursed story; her body had been shivering from the cold for a long time, and she was fighting with all her remaining strength not to faint. She didn't want to think about what HE would do to her then. "I was a lawyer, so before I received the 'opportunity,' I already knew how I would use it. I knew that through me, someone in the same profession would receive the dose of fear I had prepared. And when I arrived here, I had no doubt it would be you." Sue began to shiver even more. And now, it wasn't just from the cold. - You can't faint, you can't... - she repeated in her mind.
"This weather suits me perfectly today. There's a certain dark power lurking in the storm, lightning, and pouring rain. This landscape today is very conducive to my 'opportunity.' You're probably wondering why I chose you and how I know about you. Hence," he said, taking the slightly damp newspaper from his pocket, opening it to the chosen page, stepping closer to Sue (she desperately wanted to back away, but couldn't), and pointing to the title of one of the articles. "Ambitious attorney Sue Morgan emerges victorious once again." Sue was familiar
with the article; she'd even considered framing it today. "I read it and knew right away that you were a lawyer of my caliber. For now, you're still defending low-class scum. Embezzlement, embezzlement, tax fraud... but just wait until one day a man in a perfectly tailored suit visits your office. Someone with a good following. In other words, a member of the mafia. And then a completely different game will begin." You're the kind of lawyer I was. You can turn off your conscience, and for a fortune, you'll be willing to create a story for the court that will make your final defense argument seem like a white lie. Sue felt she couldn't bear to listen to or watch this person any longer. Or maybe something? A thought flashed through her mind. It was hard to name the person she now had practically at her fingertips. "So I'll get to the point, because my time of "opportunity" is slowly running out. I thought that once I'm here, I won't focus on simply delivering fear, according to the rules of the game I have to stick to. Nothing will help me now; I don't know if I deserve something like this, such a harsh punishment for my earthly life. But nothing will change that. I can see from your face that I've fulfilled my dark mission. I delivered a masterful dose of fear, one might say. Before I leave you, I thought I'd bend the rules a bit. The only thing I might face for this is, let's say, a slight penalty from my "hot" guardians." With that, he pointed a crooked finger of his right hand at the sidewalk. It seemed to Sue that a tiny crack appeared in the sidewalk for a moment, and someone's terrifying scream erupted from it. It happened because she couldn't have seen it. It couldn't have happened. Right? It couldn't have happened... she thought with all her strength, already controlling what little sanity she still had.
"So, I bent the rules. You shouldn't have heard my voice at all. I couldn't tell you what I said. But I did. And how you use it depends entirely on you. Believe me, you don't want to be where I am. I don't know why I bent the rules of my "opportunity." Maybe my human side showed up for a moment. Because it's not about remorse. Where I am now, there can be no question of that. The first thing they do is get rid of your conscience. They had an easier time with me, because even when I was alive, I had a residual amount of it. What drove me, I have no idea. Or maybe SOMEONE did? I'll never know. Use my words and consider whether this is how you want to lead your life...there will be no second chance. Remember -." Then HE approached Sue and, with that inhuman smile on his deformed face, touched her cheek, wet with tears and the still-falling rain. When she felt the touch of his icy, scarred hand on her skin, she couldn't resist. Darkness engulfed her. Finally... Sue thought, and, oblivious to everything else, she surrendered to the soothing blackness.
When she awoke, she was surprised to find herself sitting in her car. Her head rested against the front door window. Her clothes were dry, which surprised her as much as the fact that she was sitting in her car. The car was parked next to the building where she had her apartment. More precisely, in the parking lot where she sometimes parked her car. She looked up at the sky. "Not a single cloud," she noted with a smile. She glanced at her watch. It was 2:22 PM. This meant she hadn't gone anywhere yet, and her overworked body must have forced her to take a nap. A nap tinged with a twisted nightmare, she thought. She still had a good two hours before her meeting with the new client. Sue started laughing. "I'm incredibly tired; dreams like these can only be the result of overexertion. I'm not getting enough sleep, I'm not eating enough. These are the effects. I need to get myself together," she thought.
She inserted the key into the ignition, just to be sure. The car gave a pleasant purr, signaling that everything was fine.
"If I tell anyone this, they'll tell me to see a specialist right away. A dream like that is truly rare. It was so tangible. So real," she said to herself, still laughing. She stopped when her stomach muscles ached. "Okay, enough fun. We'll think about relaxing and taking a warm bath later. Now we have to pop into the office for a moment and then quickly meet with... What's his name... Damn... I forgot. She had so many clients that it might have been a bit of an excuse. Something that started with S... Smornton, Smornon, Sm..." As she tried to remember, she involuntarily glanced at the passenger seat and... froze. She opened her mouth, but no sound came out.
On the passenger seat was a dripping, dark hat, with burnt letters visible on it. Letters spelling out the word REMEMBER.

DRAGON



The small village where this story takes place lay in a charming valley surrounded by mountains on all sides. This location guaranteed independence from all the currents and trends of the changing world. Outside, successive governments rose and fell, new clubs won the Champions League, but here, only the village head elections and the fourth-division playoffs of the local LZS (Long-Tier Sports Association) mattered. The best evidence of this frozen time was the dragon, Zygmunt, who had lived in a nearby cave for over 500 years, breathing fire and demanding virgins. Over those 500 years, however, Zygmunt was tamed, and instead of virgins, the villagers offered him sheep, pigs, and potatoes. Zygmunt received virgins only when a particularly ugly girl was born in the village. It's clear: a headache for the parents, joy for Zygmunt. Everyone was happy.

And so the villagers lived peacefully with the dragon, unwavering for centuries. However, one day the modern world burst into the village and shattered the order established by their ancestors.

As every Saturday, the village headman went to Sigismund's cave to offer a sacrifice – this time a small, shaggy lamb. After making the offering and exchanging traditional pleasantries, the headman was about to return home when the dragon said,
"Listen... Don't bring me any more virgins, okay?
" "Why?" the headman asked resolutely.
"Because I want you to bring me a man instead of virgins.
" "How so?" There was silence. Only after a moment did the dragon speak timidly:
"I'm gay. I've been hesitant for a long time, but today I felt it for sure. I'm gay.
" "Aha..." The headman realized that an era in the village's life had just ended. He made a timid attempt to salvage the situation. "But listen, maybe it'll pass, right? No, I'm not saying it's a disease, you know, you're okay, but maybe it can be reversed somehow...? You know, men are needed in the village, they cultivate the fields, build houses, and it would be a shame to give up such a workforce... Do you know what they look like? Every man is strong as an oak, paws like a bear's, broad shoulders, muscles of iron..." He stopped here, seeing that Zygmunt the Dragon, instead of showing understanding, was blushing and sighing. "Okay, Zygmunt. I'll see what I can do."

The village headman smiled at the dragon and was immediately frightened by this reflex. "Just don't get any ideas," the headman thought. "I have to be careful. Next time I'll bring armor." He assumed a perfectly neutral expression, nodded in farewell, and headed back to the village.

For the first few weeks, seemingly nothing changed. Offerings for Zygmunt didn't go beyond the standard animal-and-potato set. However, with each visit from the village headman, the dragon became increasingly insistent in its demand for a man. On the sixth Saturday, it stood before the headman in a dramatic pose, pulled out a note hidden under its tail, and read:

"I, Zygmunt the Dragon, wish to announce that, regardless of stereotypes regarding my sexual orientation, I will soon become merciless and with a single breath, I will burn half your village. Next Saturday, I demand that a young, robust man be brought to the cave. Zygmunt the Dragon."

Surprised by this statement, the village head thought for a moment and then delivered it with equal solemnity:

"Dear Dragon, Merciful One Coexisting with Us Forever! I understand your needs. However, as a representative of the local community, I dare say that our people are not ready for such a revolutionary change. Therefore, I appeal to you, Zygmunt, to refrain from venting your anger and instead organize a march during which you can accustom the local community to your differences. Village head."

The dragon pondered and asked:
"And can you guarantee my safety during such a march?" At that moment, the village head's imagination flashed before him, bringing to mind the image of young admirers of traditional values ​​who inhabited the village in considerable numbers.
"Unfortunately, I am unable to.
" "In that case, the village head will not approve this march. There is no other option: next week you bring me a man."

The village head didn't sleep a single hour for the entire next week. He mentally reviewed the list of villagers, searching for a sacrifice for Zygmunt. Saturday arrived, and the village headman was still stuck in his starting position. Only just before the appointed hour did he come up with a solution. He hugged the village headman's wife tighter than usual, tenderly petted the young village headman, and went to the dragon. Zygmunt had been watching for the village headman and the man accompanying him since early morning, and his spirits were boiling at the sight of a familiar figure, who, clearly defying warnings, was approaching him alone.
"Dragon Zygmunt!" the village headman gasped, standing before the cave. "I couldn't sacrifice anyone from the village. These people are too important to me. That's why I'm asking you, I've brought myself to you. I may not be young, but I'm still a strong and respectable man. I don't want you to eat me. I want to live with you."
"I don't want to eat you," the dragon replied. "You have too good a heart for that. Hug me."
The village head awkwardly hugged Zygmunt's green neck, and both of them felt at once that they had finally found the meaning of their lives. They knew that from now on, the dragon's lair would become their shared home.

When the villagers learned what had happened, a scandal erupted. Protests and demonstrations began, during which effigies of the dragon and the village headman were burned. No one dared resort to direct violence (how could anyone approach a fire-breathing Zygmunt?), but everyone dared resort to verbal violence. After several days of protests, a new village headman was elected. However, this one, unlike the old one, showed no concern for the well-being of his local community. Protests, conflicts, and a poor village headman – this small village was no longer any different from the outside world.

Ravish

…she'd never seen such a look in his eyes. Never before. A mixture of uncertainty, pain, doubt, unjustified hatred, and love. For a mome...