Lost Love"

 

Kamila arrived late for class, quickly rushed into class, and took her seat. Terrible grief overwhelmed her. Only she and her thoughts remained:

"Why is he doing this to me? How could he... Paweł, my dear Paweł," she repeated over and over in her mind.

Suddenly, the teacher's loud shout interrupted her thoughts...

"Kamila, what did we talk about last lesson? Remind me and the class of the last topic."

Kamila stood up shyly, all eyes on her. She stood there silently, tears streaming down her cheeks.

The physics teacher immediately noticed his student's strange behavior:

"Kamila, is everything alright?" "Are you feeling bad?" the teacher asked gently...

"A lot has happened, but who cares?" she thought...

At one point, she ran out of the classroom just as the bell rang... The teacher asked her to come back for a talk the next day...

She couldn't stay at school any longer; she couldn't think, let alone work... She

returned home, went to her room, and fell asleep, frozen. Even in her dreams, images of those hurtful situations haunted her...

The image was like a movie, and the slow-motion scenes inflicted new pain over and over again... she saw her Paweł again in her arms – Kaśka, once her good friend, and now she hated her with all her might.

"She doesn't deserve him, how is she better than me?"

Questions arose with every second. She woke up screaming. She couldn't go back to sleep.

She decided to go for a walk. She sincerely hoped he would help her a little.

She walked through the park, surrounded by lovers, casting tender glances at each other.

Kamila had always secretly envied seeing such couples, always picturing herself with him – Paweł…

Suddenly, out of nowhere, Kaśka appeared before her…

"Hi," Kaśka said, throwing an ironic smile.

"Sorry, I don't have time to talk, I'm in a hurry," Kamila said, wanting to end this hopeless conversation as quickly as possible…

"What are you talking about, Paweł, you thought you'd forgotten about him, because you know, me and him…" "

Spare yourself and leave me alone, and besides, I'm not interested in him anymore, take him and leave me alone, you're following me around and just meddling in other people's business!!!"

Without waiting for a reply, she walked away quickly. Everything inside her was boiling, like Paweł and that hag together, everything seemed like just one big nightmare from which she would soon wake up…

The next day, when she finished her classes. As always, she was walking home alone, when she suddenly heard screams:

"Kamila!!! Kamila, wait!!!" - He screamed

. SHE KNEW THAT VOICE WELL, BUT SOMETHING MADE SHE UNABLE TO STOP...

Finally, she stopped, and Paweł ran up to her.

"Are you crazy??? What are you even thinking? How could you behave like that towards Kaśka? Have you gone mad or something?

" "Maybe I was just having a whim..."

He couldn't take it anymore and punched her square in the face...

"Then don't ever have such whims again!!!" And he walked away...

Kamila couldn't believe what had happened. She stood as if made of stone, feeling her heart break in half. She walked, tears flowing more than usual. She didn't care about anything, not even the resentment she held against him. She turned to see her Paweł for the last time...

She ran and quietly screamed:

- Paweł, Paweł, it's over, it's better this way, GOODBYE...

Without looking at anything, she ran into the street...

The girl's quiet screams drowned out the loud sounds of the brakes...

Paweł was shocked, he didn't know what to do, he regretted it all so much... He loved her, but he acted differently... he cried over her like a child, hugged her and said:

- I love you, what have you done now!!! - he shouted, but nothing could be done, he couldn't turn back time...

The next day, a new, beautiful day came. Paweł went to say goodbye to Kamila for the last time... She was so beautiful... She had a smile on her face as if saying, "Everything's alright now"...

The girl's mother handed him a letter that Kamila had left under his pillow, addressed to him... He opened it and began to read...

"Paweł, if you're reading this letter, I'm no longer here, and nothing will be the same

. I love you and you don't love me, and there's no cure for love. I knew it, and that's why it had to happen. I suffered in secret, so afraid of rejection. Today I'm leaving you, but I will always be with you. I will always love you. And remember, someone just like me loved you...

Kamila." Paweł was surprised and at the same time lost... He realized that Kamila was also someone special in his life, and this whole shell was like a shell he created himself, he was afraid, afraid of feelings, Love and probably also rejection...

The priest read:

- Today, family and friends, colleagues are saying goodbye to 17-year-old Kamila P., who died a tragic death...

When these words flowed from the priest's lips... Paweł felt this emptiness, he felt it was because of him.

He ran out of the cemetery...

He ran forward, he didn't want to live, he didn't want to live without Kamila.

"Why do people realize they love someone so late?"...

He ran across the tracks, not looking at anything, he wanted to be with her, to love and feel "loved" again...

The second day began the same way with a sunny morning, and the priest read:

- Today we say goodbye to a young boy, Paweł L. You will remain forever in our memories and in our hearts...