"I won't wake up again"

*Part One...*

I drank stronger coffee than usual today; I don't know what came over me. I don't really like "little black coffee"...if I do, it's only instant.

I sat there at the table, having silly thoughts.

It must be the nightmares that have been tormenting me every night lately.

Since I broke up with Piotrek, nothing has worked. I sit all day as if someone had crushed me and wouldn't help me up.

No one calls me...no one writes emails. Sometimes I get a text, but they're usually stupid online contests! It's true that Beata (my best friend) checks in on me often...but lately, her attitude towards life has been completely beyond my limits!

Basically, everything should be fine!

I should just keep being Anka, who, from the moment I got home from work, spent the whole day enjoying life!

She never missed a moment...

I had such satisfaction in what I did...

My favorite thing was taking off those awful high heels (after entering the house) that separated my aching feet from the cold, dirty office floor!

Then I could relax on my leather sofa, not caring if anyone was constantly watching me.

I used to fall asleep immediately afterward and sleep until Piotr came home. He'd quietly enter the living room because he knew he'd find me in a state of calm. He'd grab a fleece blanket from the armchair and cover me with it. But I'd already be awake... why sleep when I could still enjoy my fiancé for about four hours?

We'd do whatever we wanted!

But the thing we always enjoyed most was cooking together. I admit, he was better at it than me... but thanks to that, I didn't go to bed hungry!

When 9:00 PM rolled around during the summer holidays, we'd go for a short walk around our neighborhood. When we got back, we were both exhausted, so what else could we do but take a quick bath and lie down in a comfortable bed?!

Sometimes we'd watch a movie on TV, and if nothing interesting was on, we'd turn on the radio quietly.

I loved that moment...

I could snuggle up to my beloved and spend a wonderful night with him after a long day!

*I remember never wanting to wake up again...*

*...to be continued...*