"Maybe I should give myself to him after all? I'm so afraid he'll leave me..." Milena thought, putting on her makeup before her evening meeting with Kamil. "What if he leaves me for Jolka?" She didn't know what to do. He insisted she sleep with him, and even though she felt she shouldn't, she kept wondering: "What if he finds another girl?" She was terrified of this, because she loved him more than anything, and on top of that, his looks... She was surprised that such a nice guy wanted to go out with her.
When she entered the ice cream shop where she'd arranged to meet Kamil, she couldn't see him anywhere. She waited for him for half an hour, decided she'd had enough... She called him, but he didn't answer. She thought something might have happened to him, so she decided to visit him at home.
She rang the doorbell. HE answered. She started screaming at him for forgetting about the meeting and not even bothering to answer his cell phone when she called. The boy, unmoved even by Milka's cries, grabbed her hands to stop them from flailing about and shouted, "If you'd finally slept with me, I wouldn't be upsetting you! After all, I'm only going out with you so you can kick my ass..." Without a word of goodbye, the girl ran out of his garden.
However, she couldn't accept the fact that they had argued and called him that evening to apologize. In response, she heard only, "Milcia, let's do it finally. After all, we're both 17..." She agreed, thinking she had no choice... Again, that cruel fear of losing her boyfriend paralyzed her... She knew she was giving in too much, but... Well, yes, there was always a "but," because, as we already know, she was terrified of being alone.
The next day, he came to her house. He started the conversation: "Milenko, it's summer break, we have so much time for ourselves now... You know, I love you very much."
"I love you too, my little bear," the girl replied. "So, how about you prove it to me? Mila, let's do it today."
"But, Kamil..." She didn't have much to say. He started undressing her quickly, not as gently as she'd imagined... Without any foreplay, he entered her...
She started bleeding, everything hurt... She had no strength left.
"So, honey?" Kamil asked her right afterward. "Did it feel good? Because I really did."
"It was way too fast and way too hard! I'm breaking up with you. I didn't want it that way, you forced me!" Mila screamed, angrily.
"If you didn't want this, you wouldn't have invited me here," he started to turn the tables.
Milena ran out without a word.
They haven't spoken to each other in a year. Kamil hasn't even called her after all this. He already has a new girlfriend, and Milena is happy she broke up with him. And unhappy because she gave herself to just anyone..
"A wise Pole after the event" - this is now her motto
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